quote of the day

If you can stop loving someone then you never loved them

Dear Love

I thought living w/out you could be easy... but who am I kidding life with you is like living with out a purpose. I am breathing but I am not living. I can see every thing around me but yet I feel empty. I once had this pure image of you that is slowly drifting. you are becoming a once thought about idea that no longer exist. I do not know how I got here. I do not know how I lost you. I cant even remember what it feels like to have you in my world. Sometimes I think I never really had you in My world maybe I had a replica... that could be why nothing has worked out but to be honest I thought living without you would be easy but my heart aches everyday wondering why does it hurt so bad to be alone?. Why does everyday seem to be a battle. I guess its time for me to be honest and admit life without you isn't as good as it gets... I'm lonely and not having you hurts the most.

Rules of love

I think everyone should have their own rules when it comes to love. Since the dawn of time, people have been telling others how "love" is suppose to look like. For example; in ancient Egypt people married their blood siblings to make babies so they could keep their bloodline going, "sex was for creating babies" In the 12th century there was “courtly love” which was where knight had to prove his love for a married woman. As we move through time the definition of love changes and it will continue to change. We live in a world where everyone believes they should write a book on love. I cannot tell you how many books are out there. There are books on marriages, sex, love, how to catch a man, and keep him, and the do's and don't's of dating. All of these books are suppose to have the answer that will teach us how to love or how to be loved. The list is endless. We are constantly trying to manipulate love into a logically factor. The problem is, love is not logical, and there is not one equation that will give us a solid solution to this problem. I think it is a good thing that we all create our own definition of love because as humans, we all love in different styles and no matter how hard we try to put love in words we will all feel and act them out differently. Some people believe love is pure passion and emotion, it is almost like emotional rollercoaster’s and then there are others who believe love is calm and gentle built on a “ friendship caught on fire”. At the end of the day, love is what you make of it. You create your own love scale.

"Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it."
— Mawlana Jalal-al-Din Rumi

IDEALS

Is there such a thing as true love or are we living in a place where we all have to settle. Someone once told me that they rather be with a somebody then be without anybody. I thought wow! have we really gotten so far from what our grandparents have taught us? Did real love ever exist? How can we sit and ask for the "right" person when we do not believe in him/her? Are the ideals we have in our head not reality or have we simply given up on our ideals just to be with reality. I believe that love is for everyone. However, Real, true, pure love is only for a selective few. Maybe it's because those selective few did not give up on what they wanted or who they needed. I refuse to JUST be with a somebody or anybody. I want that BODY that was made for me. When God made him he had me in mind. So if that means I have to stop and be alone that is what I will do. What's reality with out our ideals... Then we are simply just living...

L.O.V.E

Love, I use to think you were a word with so much value. I use to worship the ground you walked on. I use to daydream about the moment you would be mine. I use to think that sometimes you had to go through trenches to find you. Then one day I woke up and realized that you didn't mean the same to me anymore. Or maybe I never took the time to understand your meaning. Now I sit here with once I would of called a heart but now is simply a mere organ that beats only to live... it once beated for time and your existence. I'm not sure how to feel since I stopped believing in you, it's like the world is a darker place and I just can't find a light switch. I'm wondering around wondering how did I get here? How did I let you destroy me? I thought you loved me? I guess Love doesn't love everyone. Funny thing I would of walked this whole world to show you that I loved you but you... Never came after me it was like I never even mattered to you. Now I must pick myself up from the dream that never came true and heal myself from the pain I allowed myself to feel... Love you are now just four letter word that has no meaning.