poems

“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.”

True love

Dear true love, I thought it would be easy to find you. I thought if you wanted something bad enough you could get it. I guess you don't work that way. I spent my whole life running from you because I never thought I could allow someone so close into my heart. I thought that I would never want or seek for another, I was fine with myself. One day it hit me... I was alone and there could be a huge chance that I may never find you true love... I not talking about that easy love that everyone can get. I am talking about that rare unspoken love, that people search their whole life for. you know the love that feeds your soul, better yet the love that's worth living for. It's funny I don't even know you love, but I still miss you. I know there is a part of me is incomplete and I need you to make me complete. I am not taking about the other half of me. I want a whole person. I am taking about that emotion inside that has never been touched by another. It is like my soul is waiting for this person that I have never met. A part of me wants to give up and realize that you true love don't exist... I guess I have to wait and figure out who this love person is... I hope one day we will meet, because this world is a lost place without you... So true love if we are meant to be, you will meet me, and we will love each other unconditionally

settling

I never would of thought that I would have ever settle. I mean I use to rant and rave how I would only date a person who was on my list. It's funny as you get older you see more and more that list of yours doesn't really work in real life. I thought by the time I was 24 I would have close to a husband and things would be great. well that was a bust I just turned 24 last week and I look around and all the guys I have in my life I would never want them in my life. They are all not for me. I started looking at my list of all the qualities that I ever wanted in a person and realized I have never even gotten anything close to my list. my grandpa always use to say that the people we get in our lives are actually us, and as we grow we get a person who is more like us, and these people are here to show us the things that we need to fix about ourselves. I think over my 24 years of living that I have fixed alot about myself. But maybe God seems to think different. Anywho I realized that I stopped trying the other night I was talking to this guy that I would never talk too. he was way shorter than I liked he had a child, was getting a divorced and most of all he was unstabled. I guess I got tired of trying to find that "perfect" guy I feel like he doesn't exist and to be honest I am tired of finding out. I am tired of all of these guys that I get and I am tired of trying to weed out all the bad ones. I thought that once I reached a certain level I would be able to find that special person and we would love and grow together I guess I was dreaming and love is more survival of the fittest and I feel like I am about to get kicked off the island. I don't want to settle but I don't want to wonder if true love will ever come my way... I guess I am lost in this world of love and dying to be loved... Signing off the person who almost settled