I'm getting the feeling that things are starting to change... That I am the one to blame.. How did I let it get this far, how did I let you slip away... I thought when you left I wouldnt need you anymore. but was I wrong was a chasing a dream...

Redefining Love

does it ever cross your mind and make you wonder why we say we grow but yet we find ourselves in the same situations? Why do we date the same kind of guys and hope for a different results? why do we keep trying to change our partners? When in reality we need to stop and look in the mirror. They always say your partner is a reflection of who you are. When do you get tired of telling yourself this is the last time... I won't take him back... I've grown!!! I just cant imagine being 30 and still chasing after a nightmare. We need to take back our power and realize THAT having a relationship is a privilege not a job. Having a partner is a blessing not a possession. having a partner is a gift not a curse. Having a partner is an asset not a necessity. If you have someone in your life that cause pain and doesn't add gain let it go and learn what love is about. Sometimes it means being free and walking alone to remember what you once lost. All the love you need is inside of you and once you can find and love her everything will fall into place.

The road we travel

No matter what you have done, there is no mistakes ever made. Allow different decisions. Every event we bring upon ourselves, no matter how unpleasant they may be they are essential and necessary in order to grow and learn what is needed to learn for that moment in time. Whatever steps we take are needed to reach the path we have chosen to walk. No matter what walls you have built around yourself know that there is always someone willing to fight for you... Are you? There will be people willing to take the risk? Are you? We all make choices never mistakes the road and path we take is determined by the decisions and people we bring into our lives....

Only

Only in relationships do we know ourselves not in abstractions, and surely not in isolation. The movement of behavior is the sure guide to finding yourself. It is the mirror of your consciousness; this mirror we stand in front of will revel our true self. it will revel the images we have towards attachments. The fears we have built in our minds about love and relationships. The loneliness we feel when we sit in our room and contemplate the loses we have. The joy we felt when love was abundant. The sorrow we felt when our hearts were broken. The poverty we live in because love is out of our reach. Either way it will shape and mold us for what lies ahead. Every person, The events in your life.... Are there because you have brought them to you What you do with what you have chosen will be up to you. to bring anything into your life... Imagine that it is already there....

quote of the day

If you can stop loving someone then you never loved them

Dear Love

I thought living w/out you could be easy... but who am I kidding life with you is like living with out a purpose. I am breathing but I am not living. I can see every thing around me but yet I feel empty. I once had this pure image of you that is slowly drifting. you are becoming a once thought about idea that no longer exist. I do not know how I got here. I do not know how I lost you. I cant even remember what it feels like to have you in my world. Sometimes I think I never really had you in My world maybe I had a replica... that could be why nothing has worked out but to be honest I thought living without you would be easy but my heart aches everyday wondering why does it hurt so bad to be alone?. Why does everyday seem to be a battle. I guess its time for me to be honest and admit life without you isn't as good as it gets... I'm lonely and not having you hurts the most.

Rules of love

I think everyone should have their own rules when it comes to love. Since the dawn of time, people have been telling others how "love" is suppose to look like. For example; in ancient Egypt people married their blood siblings to make babies so they could keep their bloodline going, "sex was for creating babies" In the 12th century there was “courtly love” which was where knight had to prove his love for a married woman. As we move through time the definition of love changes and it will continue to change. We live in a world where everyone believes they should write a book on love. I cannot tell you how many books are out there. There are books on marriages, sex, love, how to catch a man, and keep him, and the do's and don't's of dating. All of these books are suppose to have the answer that will teach us how to love or how to be loved. The list is endless. We are constantly trying to manipulate love into a logically factor. The problem is, love is not logical, and there is not one equation that will give us a solid solution to this problem. I think it is a good thing that we all create our own definition of love because as humans, we all love in different styles and no matter how hard we try to put love in words we will all feel and act them out differently. Some people believe love is pure passion and emotion, it is almost like emotional rollercoaster’s and then there are others who believe love is calm and gentle built on a “ friendship caught on fire”. At the end of the day, love is what you make of it. You create your own love scale.

"Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it."
— Mawlana Jalal-al-Din Rumi