Acceptance

Acceptance, was a word I didn't understand. I swear for many years of my life I felt like I had to prove something to others and myself. I wouldn't let down that everyone gets love at least once in their lives...I would date and talk to all these dudes that I knew would never become anything important in my life, and somehow knowing that outcome only led me to get hurt. I always became the rule instead of the exception. It didn't matter the guy the situation always ended the same. I sit back now and think "what in the heck was I thinking" for dating some of the dudes and how I allowed them to treat me. I guess what I am saying is that sometimes we live in this box and think that if we just try and try and try that a positive outcome will occur and to be honest, sometimes it doesn't....I know that I think love is the greatest thing that one can achieve but I also know now that it is one of those things that only come if it is in the cards for the person. Now that I am at this stage I am accepting that things might turn out in love for me, and that is ok...I am tired of being the rule and I am so tired of not being enough for someone... I am enough for me, and really at the end of the day that is all that matters I need no one approval or I no longer yearn for this love from someone else...I will love me whole....So acceptance is now a word that I feel....